Bingham Blues

Just another day in the life of Stephie...DRAMA!


Because i am the way that i am, i am always looking for the best in people, always giving people the benefit of the doubt.  I think there is good in people, but time in time again i am proven wrong.  


Lately i have been having lots of trouble with my fiances family.  I believe they are all getting together and talkin crap... then they write emails and say things to our faces that i think is outta line.  One of Kade's brothers wrote us an email telling us that according to the rest of the family we are only getting married to allow us to get into each others pants.  They also keep telling us to postpone the wedding and date longer because they don't think we know each other very well.  That is their opinion and they can have it, but I feel like I know Kade really well, I mean I have known him for years.  They have also said he can't marry me because no one in the family knows me very well. Yes, the family is important, but if they really love Kade, they will learn to love me as well because i am important to him.


Sorry, but my dad told me not to wait, and his opinion is valued high in my eyes, dating for 7 months or longer can only get you into trouble.  When you know, why wait?  
 I know it is hard, but most people tell me its worth it.  I know i love Kade, i know marrying him is the right thing for me to do.


So just today Kade's sister-in-law wrote me an email  telling me i should take my relationship with Kade slow or it will end up like my other bad relationships.  WOO... She is convinced i am in love with the idea of being married and not really in love with Kade.  K well i love Kade, our relationship now is wonderful, we have never fought, we have never had any issues with anything except his family.   I know that because i love someone and live with them wont make everything perfect.  


When we get married I know we will fight, we will have hard times, but if we continue to live the way the lord wants us to everything will be okay.  Just because we have hard times doesn't mean we sacrifice all the good times because of them.


"you can pick your friends, you can pick your nose, but you cant pick your relatives." 


They got to chose their spouse and they got to chose how long to date, now its our life, and our path to chose what way to go.  I would love to have thier support but i can also live without it.  I know i am following Gods plan, so they need to worry about themselves and their choices and stay the heck outta my hair. :D just sayin. 

I really need to get more pictures of the two of us.

 I love Kade and i am sticking to my guns!  I know God is pleased on how I'm living my life, and it is his business and mine who I marry.  


Wow feels good to get all that off my chest.  

Regular Realness

Life, why  must it be this way?  Why can nothing be regular?  Is Gods hand really in all things?  Well there is something that never changes...and that is change.  It is always around us.  Even if it feels like things are wild and out of control its nice to know there is always someone to look up to.  God is always there, God will never leave. 

Kade...is amazing to say the least.  He truly was sent to me, no doubt.  All the dirt bags i dated, all the crazy relationships, all the feelings i hurt, and all the ppl that hurt mine happened for a reason.  I am grateful for every bad relationship i have had, and really grateful for the good ones.  All of the things in my life have shaped me into the person i am.  And i know there are those out there that dislike me or don't like the way i always do things, but all in all i am a good person.  I am not perfect, but i do more good than bad.  I may have seemed flaky in the past but all the things i always ran away from were scary to me.  I left because i needed something more.  There was always a reason for my running, i wasn't meant for them, i was meant for Kade.  We are a perfect match in every way.  Sometimes i think, why did i have to wait so long to have this amazing person in my life?  It was because i was being prepared for him.  If i would have had him in my life any sooner i wouldn't have realized how truly wonderful he is, and how much i need him in my everyday life.


Disappointments...i have had a few of those lately.  i have come to realize i shouldn't feel bad or guilty for someones decisions, or life.  They have their own course to run, and there own crap they have to learn to deal with.  It still makes me hurt when ppl decide to do things i wouldn't do but they have to decide whats important to them.  Suzi i hope you comeback someday, and i hope you find happiness.  I was so excited when you told me you might stay, but i understand that you have to see where Darryl might take you.  Kylie i love you and am sad i wont see you everyday...i hope life is wonderful for you.  I also hope that you get outta your crazy house soon.  And i hope jon is your truelove...that you two will help make each other great!  I hate that a chapter is coming to a close!  You two will always be my girlies...even after marriage.


Last night i worked at the Willows and was sad because the person that was going to cover my shift o my b daydecided to back out.  So i either work on my birthday or i find someone else to cover the shift. 


I am nervous about school.  With kade around i never get anything done.  Heck i don't even know when i can apply to my nursing program.  I hope that everything will work out the way i want them...but if not its Gods will.  I have seen his hand in all things and i know that he truly has a plan and a way.  I love you Kade and can't wait to be Mrs. Kade.  66 days 

Our Engagements

Kade and Stephanie FOREVER!

Engagement Picture Day

Yesterday was stressful, i was so worried about what my engagement pictures were going to look like.  I just got my fingernails done on Thursday and pictures were coming up today!  All night Friday i was freaking out about what i was going to wear and what Kade was going to wear...i know right, i freak out about really stupid things.  LOL, so i ended up calling Suzie so she could calm me down.  We talked a while and i felt a  lot better about things.


This morning i got up and got to work around 7 am. at the willows.  I worked till two and made my way home to get ready for pictures.  I curled my hair...oh boy i looked like a freaking hairball!  That's all you could see was hair...when Kade got to my house he told me i was cute even though i didn't think so. 


So we ended up doing pictures by the temple and i had Suzie come along and take pictures with my camera so that we would have them immediately.  It was interesting...the photographer was one of Kade's sisters sister-in-laws.  She was good, but i was surprised at how few pictures she took...i can't wait to see them, i hope some of them turned out well.  






After pictures Kade, Suzie, and i went to Julie Christiansen Rosenhan's reception...She was beautiful.  She had just gotten married, and was so excited to see my ring, and made a big fuss over me.  It was so sweet, she took away from her day to be excited for me.  I love her she is so super sweet.


After that reception, Kade, Suzi, and i went to olive garden and ate, it was fun.  Suzi and i had a heart to heart about her going to Cali.  I really hope she doesn't leave but i want her to be happy as well.  Anyways we had a great discussion and she cried, and Kade spoke to her a little about how boys think and how people can change.  I love Kade so much he just carries such a spirit with him.  After we had dinner and Suzie went her separate way Kade told me he didn't think any boy Suzie had ever dated was good enough for her.  He also told me he hoped she would find love like we had, because he knows how much she means to me.  SO i am glad other people see that she is better than the boys she dates! LOL no offense Suzie i love u girl!


So after that reception Kade and I made our way to Rose to see Kiley Mae Bowman Pearson.  We almost missed her but i did get to see her.  She looked beautiful and i am happy for her.  We didn't stay long but it was good to see her and think of the past...good ol days when we were tight knit. 


After we went to Ice Cream with Ean, Ashley Talbot, and Richard to Rupes.  It was fun and soon after we went home to watch the emperors new groove.  It was a day full of activities but it was super fun.  I love my finance and i am happy that we will be together forever!  I love you Mr. Kade!


Here are all of the goofy and not so goofy pictures Suzi took on the side of our photographer Lyssa