Riding the Roller Coaster

My goodness when will life level out and be normal?  Its just one thing after another.  Now most of the things on my plate are not bad, but they still involve stress.  I wonder do i seek stressful situations?  Sometimes i feel as though i attract this feeling.  I am so grateful i have Kade, he always knows what to say and do to make me feel calm.

So today the crew gathered in Wray's office, we were talking and having a good time.  I don't know what brought it up but Wray mentioned that he no longer worked for big dog.  Because of the wide smile that was spread across his face i didn't think it was possible.  After a good 20 minutes of him and Jason convincing me of the truth i finally accepted that my older brother who had spent 8 years with this company was no longer going to work for them.  He also let us know that the place i currently work was going to be moved down to Pocatello.  So because i am getting married soon it wont be worth it for me to commute down there.  So he let us know that in about a month i will no longer have a job.  i am totally scared.  I don't know any other way to explain it.  I am so use to a full time job where i can drive and see my fiance whenever i want to.  Everything is about to change now.  Now both Kade and I don't have stable jobs.  I don't feel comfortable, but i must rely on the lord.  I wouldn't be so afraid but i have insurance through big dog and its the only way i can afford the medicine i need.  Without this medicine i will not stay stable.  I know it will work out...and right now i am so glad that i got a new job last week because at least now i have a small, very small income coming in.

I am so grateful that i have Kade's positive attitude and my other friends.  They give me so much support and love.  I am not sure what i would do without my suzie and my kylie.  Kylie saved my life, and Suzie has always been a great friend that i can talk to and share my honest feelings with.  I am not sure what i would do without them.  

So life will go on, i am just not sure how hard it will be.  i will keep my fingers crossed.