Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss.

This post is going to be hard to write.

May 6, 2010
Brandon Coburn left this life to find his next mission.  I hurt for Brandon still, I wish he was still here to make me laugh.  He definitely was one of the comedians in our Kunz family.  Although Brandon wasn't my closest cousin, I always felt a bond with him.  Maybe because I was so close to his sister that I always saw him and he was always around. I have had a hard time knowing what to say on this post, but I love and miss you Brandon.  Your life was too short, you were gone too fast.  I wish you wouldn't have felt the way you did, and I know I wish I could have done something to help you out.  I will always feel like I could have done or said something that maybe would have kept you here with us....


Honestly, I have not experienced a lot of death in my family.  Death is not the end and I know I will see them again, but I can still miss them.

Brandon left us, taking his own life.  His death has hit me so hard and there are some days when my thoughts really dwell on him.  Even after all this time, I still think of Brandon and cry for him.  Maybe I think I could have done something different to help him, or maybe because at times I have had those same thoughts, or maybe because with suicide there isn't a lot of answers with our religion on what happens to those souls, either way his death hit me so hard.  I love you Brandon, hope you are fine and doing well.