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I am basically writing just to write. I have been having a very hard time the last few days, sleeping and feeling down. A few things have gone on this week that have changed my emotions. I had a recent Dr. visit, and my favorite high school teacher was arrested.

Everything started on Wednesday. I am sure no one wants to hear about my Dr. Apt, so if it bothers you, skip down to the next paragraph. My OB, Kade, and I have been discussing contraception. I was trying to figure out what I wanted to do so that we don't have another baby too soon. There is so many pros and cons to the different stuff out there. It took me a while to decide, but I decided to go with one that works up to five years and that I will have to remove if and when we want to have another baby. When we got home I was talking to a friend who suspects she may be pregnant. I am not sure why it bothered me so much, or why it bugged me enough to write about it, but I am not happy with my decision anymore. The only reason is because it is such an inconvenience to have it removed. We are done having kids for a while, I simply cannot handle more than what we have. But not being able to try and have a baby at any given moment makes me feel like I have had my choice taken away. It was my decision and I shouldn't be upset because I have two beautiful children, and most likely I will be able to have more. I know I am lucky because there are women out there who are not able to have babies, but I think it gave me a little bit of a taste of how it would be if I was told I couldn't have anymore kids.

Later that day, I found out on Facebook that my favorite high school teacher had been arrested for sexual abuse to a student. Seriously??? People were saying awful things about him on facebook and other news forums, never thinking about how his family felt or the terrible things they were going through. These girls were saying things like "he finally got what was coming to him" and "I saw him rub girls shoulders and do very bad stuff" I was amazed at how fast his great reputation got trashed. Okay, to clarify, there were a few people dishing out crap and a bunch of girls and others who defended him. But every time someone defended him a fight would get started on FB, and we all know how annoying that can be. I will wait until the judges decide but, I love this man and would never suspect any such thing from him. I understand that people do things we don't expect, but I just don't buy it. I hope that he is honest and that he will get a fair trail. No matter the outcome, I will always know him as a great man, he was always there for me, and believed that I could do great things. He went the extra mile and was a caring teacher, one that I always trusted, one that I will always call my favorite. I have had a hard time sleeping ever since Wednesday night when I found out. I just keep playing things over in my mind. I just cannot see him doing a thing like this.

Mr. Cox is no longer a high school geometry teacher, but has been a principle at the Jr. High for 2 years. He was arrested at the school and spent the night in jail. On Thursday he was released, to his wife. He is facing 3 counts of felony child abuse to a child under 16. They are saying that he went to the victims home, that things didn't just happen at school. He will have his preliminary trial on March 1st. All I can do is hope and pray for him.