New Year Resolution 2015

When the new year hit, I had goals, I was keeping busy. I was running at least 2 miles a day (slowly), trying to build up to 3. I was doing everything I could think of to lose my 30 pounds of baby weight. Mostly I was getting frustrated (hey, I still am). But the thing is, I need to quit focusing on the number. I need to get some new priorities, it really is JUST a number. If I'm focused on being healthy the rest will fall away. What I really need to do instead of obsess is....

I need to love on that perfect baby and be happy that I'm his mother. 

I need to chase these other two other kids, while they still want to be chased. 

I need to quit wishing for things to be different and live in the present. I have so many things to be grateful for, and I need to enjoy them while they are still here. 

By reading a few books lately, I have really started to understand how negative I am. If I have to choose one goal this year, I want to be more positive. This isn't going to be easy, but with so much to improve on, it is possible. I tend to dwell on how much I need to improve on, instead of celebrating how far I've come. And trust me, I have come a long way. 

Positive affermations is where I have started. I say things to myself, out loud, whenever I'm in my bathroom. 

Already I feel more love and gratitude for my life. I challenge you to do the same, tell yourself just how beautiful you are. Remind yourself that you are amazing. Tell yourself, that God made you and he doesn't make mistakes. Make time to love on yourself. I'm making a positive change this year, are you?!? 

May 2014 Update

I feel like I have totally fallen out of the digital/social world as of late.  Maybe because we just haven't been up to much...

I mean, I have been busy, we just haven't done anything exciting enough to writing about.  In the last week I have shot 2 weddings and so I have photos to edit up to my eyeballs.  Not to mention the one I have the Saturday after next.  I feel completely overwhelmed but it is a good thing, it is keeping me busy.


Finals are this week, and I am really nervous about my math final.  I am hoping for B's in both of these classes.  Finding time to drive down to class and do homework was near impossible with life this semester.  It was hard, I blame this mostly on me just wanting to be done with school....and the fact that I feel chronically fatigued.


I officially have signed up for a 5K, although I won't be in good enough shape to run it, I just need a goal to keep me active at this point.  Kade was going to do it with me, but the races are always on a Saturday and he has a hard time getting work off on Saturdays.  At this point I am trying to decide if I should take the kids or not...

 Our dog crazy Cora, who is the best walking buddy ever.  Don't you love my matching outfit??? ;)

I haven't run much since junior year of high school and I wanted to get back into it, but having kids has made this process harder on my body then I thought.  I also get discouraged because exercising was never this hard before, it makes me want to quit most days.  On the bright side Monteview always has pretty sunsets to look at, I wish my phone would cooperate so I could share a picture with you sometime.  By the time I get back home to a working camera the color isn't as impressive, here is the end of one....

Isn't God great?  Such amazing color, I love how pretty it is here.

I have gained some weight and I have had a hard time controlling how much I eat after I walk/workout (whatever you call it).  Easter was hard on me, I haven't been able to control the candy binges.  So, this month I am cutting out my sweets after dinner, or at least that is my goal for now.  Sweets after dinner is my weakness, I can go a whole day without thinking about sugar, until it gets dark.  I can have natural sugars like fruits, but no candy or ice cream for me.  May is going to be a long month.


My kids are growing and all looking healthy, Drake has been doing a screaming phase that makes your ears hurt. He discovered that he can make a really loud noise and just repeats.  Addyson, has been herself, ruling the roost. She is really into doing things her way, dressing herself, getting into the car, and it takes a LONG time and a lot of waiting on my part.

Sunday at G&G Kunz's

As for next time, I will catch us up on all of Kade's projects.  He has kept busy, and is excited for warmer weather.

Nail Biting

I try to better myself everyday. Even though sometimes I am taking steps backward instead of forward, I AM trying! One goal I have been working on lately is to quit biting my fingernails. I don't even remember a time where I have not had my fingers in my mouth. I know how many germs grow and live under the fingernail. So I have stopped. It is not the first time I have tried, anxiety always seems to puts them right back in my mouth. So here goes another round. Lets see how long I can get them. Wish me luck!

P.S. It has been almost 2 weeks. YAY me.