New Year Resolution 2015

When the new year hit, I had goals, I was keeping busy. I was running at least 2 miles a day (slowly), trying to build up to 3. I was doing everything I could think of to lose my 30 pounds of baby weight. Mostly I was getting frustrated (hey, I still am). But the thing is, I need to quit focusing on the number. I need to get some new priorities, it really is JUST a number. If I'm focused on being healthy the rest will fall away. What I really need to do instead of obsess is....

I need to love on that perfect baby and be happy that I'm his mother. 

I need to chase these other two other kids, while they still want to be chased. 

I need to quit wishing for things to be different and live in the present. I have so many things to be grateful for, and I need to enjoy them while they are still here. 

By reading a few books lately, I have really started to understand how negative I am. If I have to choose one goal this year, I want to be more positive. This isn't going to be easy, but with so much to improve on, it is possible. I tend to dwell on how much I need to improve on, instead of celebrating how far I've come. And trust me, I have come a long way. 

Positive affermations is where I have started. I say things to myself, out loud, whenever I'm in my bathroom. 

Already I feel more love and gratitude for my life. I challenge you to do the same, tell yourself just how beautiful you are. Remind yourself that you are amazing. Tell yourself, that God made you and he doesn't make mistakes. Make time to love on yourself. I'm making a positive change this year, are you?!? 

Craving Improvement

The kids eating chips and milk for lunch!  Super mom RIGHT?

Life has changed a little over here for us.  My kids are now being watched at least 2 times a week, most of the time they love it.  I travel to school at least 2 times a week, sometimes more, if I need extra help. In my mind I keep thinking how close I am to done, & then I kinda act like I am done, by doing nothing.  I am hindering my own growth, but that isn't anything new for me.  I read on a fitness blog today this little quote, and it totally fits my life in a number of ways.

Success doesn't mean you haven't made mistakes.  It just means you've made the effort to keep going after making them.  

  I am not only hindering my growth in school, but in all aspects in my life.  I feel like I have hit a dead end.  The only thing I can think to do is make an effort to be better....I really am trying.  Most days I feel like I am completely failing in EVERY department.  I know I am not the only one out there that struggles with these feelings.    But the last month I keep thinking of all the things I wish I would have done different.  But mistakes are going to happen, it is how you react, and live with them.  I hope that I am reacting in a positive way.  I hope that I am getting a little better in all areas of my life.

My neighbor and I have been trying to work out in the mornings.  When I say try, it is really a hit and miss.  But it gets me moving every once in a while.  Kade was so excited for me that he went and helped me pick out some new kicks.  He was so excited, it makes me wonder why he is so for me working out.  I love them and they are probably the nicest feeling shoes I have ever worn.

By just being more diligent in working out, the rest of my day normally goes better.  I sometimes am even in a better mood.  In YW last week we were talking about the word of wisdom and how health and fitness are a part of it, & people forget that.  We talked about how important it was to take care of our precious temples of God by being healthier.  This lesson has stuck with me and this week I really tried to be a little better!  

Sorry about my randomness, I feel like I am all over the place.
In other news

I happily filled out my graduation application today.  

I will soon have a degree that means pretty much nothing! HOORAY! 

On a side note, it looks like this week will be a busy one.  We have a funeral and lots of family coming in.  I sadly am not looking forward to this particular party, we love and miss you Grandpa Metcalf!

DoTerra Weekend 2013

Last week Shyla and I went to Utah for a DoTerra conference.  Where I got my homework done between all of this, I still don't know.  But, I had such a great time in Utah.  I learned a lot, here are some tidbits I brought home with me. There are a few, so sorry :)

Happiness is my choice and everyone needs to figure out how to make that happen for themselves.  Most people think happiness is a result, after they have money, or toys, or kids, but it isn't a result its a choice.

Remember you may not be able to change your circumstance, but at least have a plan.  Which, I tend to lack a plan, so something to work toward.

Be DONE being angry.

I learned the power of your mind and how much positive thinking can change.  Although, I really have to fight to have positive thoughts, I am trying very hard to work on that aspect of my life.

I learned a lot about my diet habits and that they can contribute to my moods.  I learned that simple sugars actually act as an immune suppressor.

I learned that most of us create our own challenges, the choice is ours, the responsibility is ours, what will you choose to do?  This really hits home, sometimes a bad mood controls my whole day and it creates a challenge.  I need to JUST take care of myself better.

There was so much positivity it was impossible not to feel great about yourself and about what you could do with your life.  We are all so capable of great things, most of us just don't know our potential.

inspiration-expression=depression

I'm really going to try to work on making close friends...it is something I always have struggled with.

There comes a point in your life when you realize you can't change people and you don't have the right to.  You have the choice though, to either keep those people in your life or not.  Try to chose to keep people that uplift you.  Because you marinate in what you are around.

We had so much fun, we shopped, listened to inspiring talks, and smelled amazing.  We listened to a few concerts that were uplifting and awesome.  We defiantly had some bonding time and a great weekend.  I couldn't be happier for how it turned out. :)  Other then pictures, I always wish I had more pictures. HAHA

Our room

Some of the swag, I got some great oils too. 

Yeah, we are that cool! :)

Now it's back to my day to day real life.  I'm ready for some normal :)