Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss.

This post is going to be hard to write.

May 6, 2010
Brandon Coburn left this life to find his next mission.  I hurt for Brandon still, I wish he was still here to make me laugh.  He definitely was one of the comedians in our Kunz family.  Although Brandon wasn't my closest cousin, I always felt a bond with him.  Maybe because I was so close to his sister that I always saw him and he was always around. I have had a hard time knowing what to say on this post, but I love and miss you Brandon.  Your life was too short, you were gone too fast.  I wish you wouldn't have felt the way you did, and I know I wish I could have done something to help you out.  I will always feel like I could have done or said something that maybe would have kept you here with us....


Honestly, I have not experienced a lot of death in my family.  Death is not the end and I know I will see them again, but I can still miss them.

Brandon left us, taking his own life.  His death has hit me so hard and there are some days when my thoughts really dwell on him.  Even after all this time, I still think of Brandon and cry for him.  Maybe I think I could have done something different to help him, or maybe because at times I have had those same thoughts, or maybe because with suicide there isn't a lot of answers with our religion on what happens to those souls, either way his death hit me so hard.  I love you Brandon, hope you are fine and doing well.

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.

The first time Kade held Drake. You can see the pure joy in his face. It touches my heart every time and makes me smile.

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.

EWWW. There are other things I fear more than snakes. Like bad things happening to my family. But this was the easiest thing to find a picture of. Oh I also hate the dark, you just don't know what is out there trying to get you.

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.

I love Chard. He is my favorite little brother. I miss the times where we would hang out just the two of us, going to dinner and a movie. Man I hate getting old and missing out.

7 Weeks

Although this is only the start of this pregnancy, I can already feel the difference. I actually have gotten some morning sickness. I am not sure you would call it that, but I am ALWAYS nauseous. If I wait to long to eat, I feel sick. If I eat to much, I feel ReAlLy Sick.

Today I am 7 weeks. We got our insurance notified, and we will look around for a health care provider. I liked my last doctor. This time though, I would like to try a midwife. I think I would work a lot better with a midwife.

We let the news slip to a couple of people...and yes we are crazy. All I can say is, it's not our plan, but heavily fathers.

Kade leaves for his new job tomorrow. :( He will be gone a whole 10 days. I am really going to miss him.

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.

I love the church, and I am grateful for it and my testimony. Because of Christ and all he did for me, I will be able to be with my family forever. That is something that is worth SO much.

Day 25 - A picture of you last year.

My hair was LONG and DARK. :D

Yup, that was only a year ago. I had a little bitty baby boy growing in my tummy. About the size of a blueberry.